Sorry

I'm An Idiot.

I Should have Known You Wouldn't Reply To That.

And Now I'm Sitting Here.

Unsure Of What To Say.

Unsure If There Is Anything I Can Say.

And You Continue To Ignore Me.

It's Not Like You Didn't Get The Message.

I Sent In On Face Book.

And I Text It.

And Yet I'm Still Sitting Here.

Unsure Of How To Talk To You.

Unsure Of If You Want To Talk To Me

I Just Did Something Stupid.

I Sent The Message.

I Followed My Horoscope.

I Made His Come True.

And Think I Made A Fool Of Myself.

Way To Go D!

You Showed Common Sence You Can't be Taimed!

Hair!

I Dyed It!

It's Back To A Boring Old Colour.

PURPLE!

I Have No Idea Why I'm Writing About This In All Honesty.

This Whole Zodiac Thing Is Killing Me.

Trying To Follow It.

But It's not Fun.

It Say's On The 6th "He Feels The Same Way" For Mine.

And "Check Your FB Messages" For His.

So Basically I'm Going To Have To Come Up With A Message Worth The Zodiacs Writing About.

Fun.

Seriously?

Please Tell Me "That" Is Not The Reason You Ditched Me?

It Looks Like Orvil And Sloth From The Goonies Lovechild!

And Please Tell Me The Whole "I Love It When You Like It" Thing Wasn't Aimed At It?

ITS F.B-RAPING YOU!

If Thats What Your Into, Not Only Am I Too Good For You,

But You Should Think About Going To Washington And Filling In For Mr. Hands.

Sweet Dreams

I Hate It When You Have Dreams About Love When Your Single.

When Your Asleep.

Your Mind makes Up For What Your Missing.

You Feel The Warmth Of Those Embraces.

You Taste Those Kisses.

You Wake Up.

Your Lifes Shit.

You Try To Go Back To Sleep.

Try To Go Back To The Dream.

But Its Gone.

Shnowwwwww.

Hate It.

It's Cold.

It's Wet.

It's Like The Frozen Equivelent Of Sand.

(Gettin' In EVERYTHING!)

And Yet, I'm Going To Go Out In It Tonight.

The Things I Do To Stop Cabin Fever.

Don't Comment On My Post's.

We're Clearly Not Friend's.

I Hate It When You Like It.

Whataya Want From Me?

Ok.

I LOVE ADAM LAMBERT.

BEST GIG EVER!

THE SEXIEST GAY IN THE WORLD.

POINTED TO ME.

IN A ROOM FILLED WITH PEOPLE.

AND SAID I HAVE COOL HAIR!!!

It's Over.

I can finaly say it.

And it's the truth.

I'm done.

I'm better.

I'm over you.

And you know the thing that annoys me?

I can't even say this to your face.

Sure, my reasoning for this is off, but I couldn't care less.

No more want.

No more guilt.

No more anything.

Nice knowing ya buddy.

See you in a few years.

Sure, it's going to be awkward.

But you deserve it.

Okay.

Last post was a bit harsh, so it is now GONE!

Facebook really ticks me off.

YOU NEED TO PUT YOUR SEXUAL PREFRENCE IN YA BAM! ¬¬

Seriously!

GAH!

Inaccessibile, Irraggiungibile, Inavvicinabile...

Why is it that all of the guys I like are Inaccessible?

P.s.

My Thesaurus-

Inaccessible - Straight

Impossible

Lovin' that song atm! lol anyways

I thought ignoring him at training would make him see I'm not gonna flip again, but now I think I'm just pushing him further away that I already had.

I just don't want to 'try' to be his friend incase it freaks him =S

Just feels so awkward...

And now I've just realised I told him I have a blog, and if he reads this, I'm fucked...

And on top of all this, I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT TO WEAR TO THE ADAM LAMBERT GIG!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tick Tick Boom

You have friends?

Oh that's nice.

I used to have friends.

Now the only one I truly trusted is a stuck up bitch who seems to have forgotten who was there for her no matter what.

Seriously, she text me out of the blue on sunday, saying "Sure lets meet up" and she hasn't said anything since.

I honestly thought things might be going back to the way they were.

Guess not.

Facebook

So I'm over him... HAHA

Seriously though, I think I am!

I don't have that burning need to text him, to find out what he's doing, to be the creepy stalker that I think I was becoming.

I mean, yeah, I want to be his friend, but that'll take time.

Don't think he trusts me yet not to flip out and go crazy fan-boi on him again =S

But yeah, life's getting better!

Would be nice if the ass accepted me as a friend on FB, but I can wait ;D

TTYL x

Oh my god my head hurts!

I know what I want, and I have an idea of how to get it, I'm just not sure if I can risk ruining what I have at the moment.

It's not helping that he is finally responding in a way which... Ahhh god damn emotions!

God Damn Life!

God Damn Love!

God Damn TRAMPOLINING!!!

Texts - Murderous Little Fuckers

Ok, smiley faces are still considered flirting in texts, right?

I asked him how bad a jackass I had been since I met him, he responded -

"At times big jackass but most of time no not really lol u R 2self consious :)".

To which I (Amazed by his honesty, one trait I didn't think he owned" responded by texting -

"Yeah, well, so's your face :)".

And he ended the conversation with -

"Lol worst comeback evr Haha :):):):)".

So, are these smileys still thought of as flirting?

If not, are the ;) ones?

Ok, seriously confused!

I just got Mind-Fucked. Twice.

1. My mother sat me down, telling me that chances are, regardless of percived sexual orentation, there will be a girl out there for me.

I hate her, because it made sence!

There are over 6.5 billion people in the world, and one of me. Theres no way that our choices are limited to one gender. I'm not religious, but whetever created us isn't so evil to only place one soulmate on this earth for each of us. So, as much as this may be true, it doesn't mean that I'm gonna activley persue something I have no interest in. At the moment.

I have no clue whats going to happen in the future, I have no clue how i would react if i found a girl that was perfect for me. Most likley freak out. But I don't know.

2. The guy i fell for who text me, telling me he didn't want to be friends is talking to me again. I asked if he was attending something i was as i was asked to, and he started a conversation. And he kept it up.

I realise why he didn't want to be seen as friends, that he's afraid of others opinions, but he clearly still wants a friendship.

I just dont know how to proceed in being his friend. Do I wait a while, until what happened before isn't so fresh, or do i just act like nothing happened?

MIND-FUCKED!

Paper-light Punches

Theres one thing I cant stand.

People who act strong when they are pathetic.

Take my Father.

He told me last night to "Bring It".

I kicked him in the crotch. Hard.

He punched my face.

I punched his ribs.

Both of us broke things.

He bust his knuckle on my face.

I broke a few of his ribs.

He broke a promise.

I broke free.

Welcome to real life Douglas, we've been expecting you.